I’ve been blogging sporadically since fall of 2011 and then in Summer of 2012 I started to blog a bit more as I discovered I had a Chiari Malformation and needed surgery.
I blogged through the terror of surgery, the misery of recovery, and the devastation that followed breaking my neck. By May 2013 I was out of the neck brace and my surgery was 8 months behind me, I graduated college cum laude and left all my friends on one side of the country and returned to the west coast and my family.
The crush of returning home and becoming entirely dependent once more, after a surgery that made me an invalid for many months, was too much too bear and I couldn’t handle a blog where people I knew would read my thoughts and freak out about me even more. But I wanted to be heard, I wanted to talk, I wanted my thoughts to become words and I wanted those words to be heard and understood. I started writing songs and playing them on my ukulele at a coffee shop. I also started writing on this, my secret second blog that my Mom (prime worrier) and the rest of my family and friends don’t know about.
So that’s the story.
I have poems, I have random stupid thoughts, I have stories and ideas on this blog that are here because I’m too afraid to share with people I know who might judge me or ask questions or be upset that their preconceived notions about me have been shattered. I also have a lot of kinda obsessed love poetry about random guys I meet that friends/family may know, and that’s another reason why this blog is a secret. I like to vent the crazy love feelings somewhere so that I can stop thinking about it and move on, and a secret blog for all things vent related is convenient to have.
That’s a bit of a background, to supplement that “Hey” that I gave you earlier.