I am here

Facing the reality of the fact that no matter how hard you try, you may fail sometime, and trying to figure out what you’re supposed to keep working toward and what you’re supposed to let go of is a lot of work.

It requires humility and strength of endurance that I do not always have. Sometimes it results in being overwhelmed by your own inadequacy, and being unable to try to hold on any more, and twenty minute sobbing sessions in your room where no one can see you.

Eventually loved ones find you and try to console you while you simply recognize the fact that you have no control over the situation and don’t want to be crying, and really don’t mean to be bothering them with your pain, but you just can’t handle the stress at the moment and you need to cry.

Then you get ready for bed, read a novel for four hours, and go to sleep thinking that at least your life is better than the character’s in the dystopian society, and at least you can enter a different world for four hours at a time, and step into the life of someone else, be it ever so briefly, and be okay. Not only be okay, but maybe grow stronger with the recognition that we all struggle as human beings, and nobody has everything under control, and that while you may be crying about a situation you see no way out of, the pain is temporary and ultimately, some way or another, it will be solved.

You are loved, and it will be okay.

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  1. Four hours of reading a good novel is one of the treatments that always help to cope with some difficult situations. Sometimes I find answers for my questions in a book.

    • I agree wholeheartedly with both of your statements. Thank you for sharing. šŸ™‚

      Also, what’s your favorite book? I just finished reading Gathering Blue, by Lois Lowry, and then I started reading The four Loves by C.S. Lewis. Are you reading anything at the moment? I’m looking for more recommendations, especially now that I’m on break from school…

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