No update on the relationship front today. Except that I completed day one of being a normal person yesterday. Who knows how many more to go.
My only communication with him was some friendly chatter related to music.
Then I went to work, I’m officially a tutor. Praise the Lord. Perfect timing.
The week I tell my crush I like him is the same week I’m officially employed. I work with kids. It keeps my mind off the crush and all the ways I could embarrass myself in front of him. Especially now that he knows.
Like, this Thursday I was supposed to play this new song I wrote for him, I mean, not that I wrote for him, but a song that I wrote. He wanted to hear it. The lyrics are all about my heart and love and mushiness. Before I might have been able to brush this off and he would have just said “Aww, that’s a cute song”. Now he might think about it.
It’s a love song written by a girl who has a crush on me…I wonder who it’s about…
It’s not even specifically about him, okay? Technically.
Except now. NOW…well I’m in a dangerous zone where he knows how I feel and I don’t want to scare him off by singing him love songs.
But of course, on a musical level at least, I still want him to hear the song because I need someone’s approval and a musician’s opinion.
I’ll deal with it Thursday.